Restart challenge?

Since my last blog things have been a bit swingy for me. I played about 7 hrs total on friday and finished the day $360 up although was up over $800 at one point. So my roll was upto $2070, but had been over the 2.5k mark. On saturday I went round andy's to play. He was playing the $530 big shot on PKR, so I ignored all bankroll management logic and decided to play as well. We swapped 20% cos he runs v good in tourneys ;) and I sold 10% to a mate.


Despite getting an early chip lead I didnt cash. I finished 6 off the money and Andy finished 5 off. Even a min cash was $1400. The standard in this comp was awful considering the buy-in. I lost a monster pot with AK vs KJs after he raised under the gun and I shoved from sb. He should never call there but Im glad he does as Im huge favourite. Then manage to stay alive by stealing alot when the ante's came in. Then with 11big blinds its folded to me in sb, and I shove J5s, get snapped called by......... Q5. I mean wtf. Obviously my shoving range is pretty wide its still pretty awful. He only had about 16BB's as well. Obv I lose and bye bye £300.


Anyways also lost $50 playing HU vs a fish so roll was now back down to $1490. This really really tilted me, like so much. A massive part of poker is psychological and having $1k less in my roll than I did at some point the day before bothered me alot. Even though when I take a step back, I still made around $600 (inc rakeback) in a week, which is a decent wage in the real world (esp as its tax free :-). The thing is even if I have a good week this week and make say $900, Im still not where I was.


So Im going to start my challenge again. Well kinda. Im gona take out $490 and leave just $1k. Although my aim is now 4.5k. I know most people wont be able to understand this and think Im a bit retarded as it doesnt actually change how much Iv won or lost, but its purely psychological. Its like a fresh start and makes it easier to forget about past losses. Now when my roll hits 2.5k Ill be happy and pleased with myself, as opposed to thinking negative thoughts.


Enough about poker. Going to see jamie t in birmingham in october. Not really my sort of music but apparently he's good live. Im going with Vikki, Gary and Claire and meeting up with badger and his new gf (Sarah?). Even if the gigs shit, it'l be an awesome night out. Going upto Lincoln where badger lives for a night out the day before as well so looking forward to it. I also think its good to have things planned, so you have something to look forward to. Even if its something little.


Iv made a deal with Vikki. If I achieve my challenge, then we're going to Thailand for a month early next year. Gives me some extra motivation. I had a quick look at flights and you can get them for £350 return!!! When I went before they were over £700.

Love you all