Bad times

Things have been a bit crappy lately. I had a good week last week making about 1.3k in 4 days b4 going away for the weekend. But this week Iv really struggled to put any hours in. I just cant get motivated to play, despite feeling like I was playing the best I ever have last week. I know I shouldnt play when not in the mood but I feel as though I HAVE to play so I have, and my results have been awful. Iv just played so fucking bad its unreal. Iv pretty much gave away 1k this week. I might as well have just lit money on fire. Iv never been able to put in like 60 hrs a week. I have the shortest attention span ever, and I just cant play long sessions. I get bored so easily. It's something I really wish I could change. Any ideas anyone??

Iv realised that I have absolutely no will power whatsoever. I been trying to change a couple of little things in my life, such as not eating so much crap (I seriously eat so unhealthy) but I just cant stop myself. Iv also been trying to spend less money because I just waste so much on nothing, especially when Iv had a good session/week. So what do I do? Go and eat out 4/5 times a week and get loads takeaways. Well done Jamie, very clever.

Iv also been trying to play more poker (yeh right) and only play 1/2 because Im not rolled for 2/4. But the gambler in me just cant resist playing higher. Iv even played some 5/10 this week because there were some big fish. Im such a donk. I just gona withdraw and leave myself 1.5k in my account and withdraw it when I get to 2k and start again, its the only way I can stop myself.

Iv also tried to stop gambling on things I dont have an edge such as roulette, fruit machines, blackjack etc. Iv seriously blown so much at casinos and PKR blackjack. Iv been doing pretty well for the most part, I havnt been to casino in months, disable blackjack on PKR, but I still have to go and chuck money away on the fruity when I go to the pub (which is basically everyday). Maybe its the flashing lights and sound effects ha.

Bye